Monday, October 10, 2005

a bit of rafalosophy

so tonight i went to rafa‘s poetry reading and heard him perform this poem that i’ve heard him read before, but this was my first time seeing him perform it on stage.  actually, it was the first time i’d seen him perform anything on stage.  if you can call the basement of grounds for enjoyment a stage…

afterwards, we stuck around and discussed life… and as i was letting him in on a few changes in my stance on life, he asked me if i was studyin’ up on his rafalosophy.  hmmm… i’d like to think of my development as strictly my own, although i have to admit that my friends, and my conversations with them, -do- influence my growth.  i think mostly i wanna claim my recent progress as something i’ve grown into as the time was right for it, instead of something that i accept only cuz he beat me over the head with it =D any of you who have a friendship with him like i do know what i’m talking about, right?

anyways, i guess i just wanna say that i’m realizing more and more that life is what i make of it… this might be just a product of me growing up or just finally realizing it but hey, this is my life, and i’m enjoying it.  sure, things could be different, things could possibly be even better, but ya know what?  it’s my life, and it’s what i choose every day, and i’m okay with that.  maybe it’s just a result of finally having a job that i love, and being where i feel i should be, instead of feeling like i’m still searching for a purpose in life.  or maybe it’s just cuz now i’m 26 and i’m more mature than i was before.  whatever the reason, i know that i can make the choice every day to live this life…

life is a choice.  happiness is a choice.  and it’s a choice that i’m learning to make.  none of this waiting till things get better.  i’m just gonna start enjoying it now =)

Posted by kgrp on 10/10 at 10:09 PM
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Friday, October 07, 2005

friday night

it’s friday night and another week is done… with only Sabbath left, of course.  i’m looking forward to tomorrow’s sermon.  alan‘s gonna be speaking at the grove so i know it’ll be good…

yesterday, i found out one of my students is jewish, and i told him how my family used to light the menorah every friday night.  no, not the hanukkah menorah, but the 7-candle weekly menorah. 

later that night, i started reminiscing… how we’d go home earlier than most days, and spend the time cleaning the house and preparing for the Sabbath.  it was such a big deal growing up.  i’d have to clean my room, clean the living room, and have my clothes all picked out and ready to go - i’d even have to go to the garage and polish my shoes for church!  my mom would have potato corn chowder on the stove and it would tempt me....  and then, when the sun went down, even if we weren’t done cleaning (and boy, would we get in trouble for that!) we’d stop, and have family worship to bring in the Sabbath.  even our pets would participate in worship!  bubbles -always- sang along with any hymn we’d sing =) then we’d get to eat the good food =) and we’d sit around the dinner table, light the menorah, recite the fourth commandment, and then bless the food.

as stressful as the clean-the-entire-house-before-the-sun-goes-down was, i look back on that time with fond memories.  as i grew up, we got more involved in church and school, and i’d have vespers to attend (or even be in charge of) and we were home less often on friday nights.  we would still have dinners like that every once in the while, but they weren’t the same… and especially now, as i live on my own, i find that i miss that.  Sabbath used to be a celebration, something we’d fervently prepare for… and now, it’s almost just like any other day in the week =/ it’s too bad… i really enjoyed those times.  i guess it’s one of those things i wonder if i’ll do for my children, y’know, having our family have our special nights together.  i really hope so.

Posted by kgrp on 10/07 at 10:43 PM
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Thursday, October 06, 2005

picture day

just like when i was in high school myself, i TOTALLY forgot that today was picture day… it doesn’t help that i showered right before i slept and so when i woke up it looked like my hair was plastered to the right side of my head in directions i didn’t want it to go.  nor that i didn’t get alotta sleep last night. 

but that’s okay.  i just went into the bathroom to pull at my hair a little bit and then i went on over to the picture room, which happened to be empty, so apparently i beat the middle school rush.  i’ll be bringing my students over later, but i figured, hey i can get my picture in.  and then - i asked for an ID card.  i got one last year from bloomington, it says “Ms. Puen” on it.  but.... the company here isn’t used to doing staff cards, so i -might- just get an id card with just my name on it.  i mean, no one here calls me ms. puen anyways.

that would so rock if i got a high school ID card with just my name on it.  i never have problems passing as a student =) =)

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

double decker - yuck!

ughh.. i should remember never to eat a taco bell double decker taco!  what was i thinking getting meat at a fast food place?  i’m telling you, my stomach is veggie unless i’m eating korean bbq beef =) hahahah....

but yah, my stomach has been outta commission all day cuz of the taco i had last night, suck, huh?  so i missed my classes after lunch cuz i didn’t wanna risk throwing up in school… and i just came home and slept instead.

perry came over after work to get me some ‘juice it up’ with protein, trying to ease my stomach back in… it was very sweet of him to get me to stater bros also, cuz we all know i woulda starved at home just sitting here instead of driving myself the block over to staters, just to get me a banana so i can fill up my tummy with healthy goodness.  so yah, now i’m armed with orange juice (lotsa pulp!), some bananas, and some microwave dinners so i can try to start eating again.  it even looks like i’ll have breakfast in the morning!  yay!  life is lookin’ up again… hahhahaah… so dramatic, i know… but now i’ll be able to coach the girls vball practice, since their coach is out for the week and i volunteered to help out, ‘cept i went home early today =/ so yah… tomorrow, i have high hopes.  back to normal, being active, and stuffing my face with food… hopefully…

it’ll be a while before i ‘taco bell’ again!

Posted by kgrp on 10/04 at 09:12 PM
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Friday, September 30, 2005

more movin'

rita & me after our first day of moving
as soon as we decided to move in, rita and i moved our beds, couches, and table.  we barely had anything except for those things - i still had to go back to the house to shower!  but yah, this was our house in all it’s glory, right before the mad rush of this week, in which i’ve been staying up past midnight every day, using that time to empty, clean, purge, and vacate the old house.  it’s a large process when you have a four-bedroom house and 2 1/2 tenants… but today it will all be over!  this is the very last day we own the house… so now that i’m off work, i’m headed on over to move the remains… *sigh*

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Thursday, September 29, 2005

maria's!

rod and gary chowing at maria's
hahaha… what better way to start off my blog than to post a pic from my favorite restaurant, maria’s =) this was from a few weeks ago when kat was back in town and she met up with me, rita, janet, rod, and gary over there.  they’re so focused on eating it’s funny… sure looks like they’d take a good nap after that meal!

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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

movin'

so… my blog has moved on to a new home page - here at http://kimi.puen.net

and it mirrors my real life, as i’ve moved (down the street!) to apartments 3 blocks away from my house.

i’m sitting here in my near empty room using internet here for what will probably be the last time, and it makes me sad.  i’ve been here for 2 years… hosted many a tuesday night here, had housewarmings, birthday parties, overnight guests (and some have turned into ‘5th roommates’ for weeks at a time as they’ve needed it), late night sessions… well, this house has sure experienced a lot.  maybe it’s just the sense of ownership you have when you live in a house, but this move makes me sad.  i doubt i’ll ever get this attached to the apartment i’ve just moved to… just like i didn’t at our last apartment (although that might’ve had something to do with our manager/neighbor and her husband/man-child =P).  but that’s another topic....

to stay on the positive memories, i just wanna say that i hope one day to own a house like this - one that’s open to everyone, a house where people come over to hang out, or just drop by to say hi.  a house where there’s a big huge backyard that kids can play in, and a tree with a hammock in it to relax after a long day’s work.  a house that has plenty of space to have lotsa guests… basically, i just want to own a place that is warm and inviting, a place that is relaxing, a place of comfort, somewhere to turn when you need a friend.  y’know… all the mushy gooshy warm touchy feely stuff that made this house so nice.  if a house so old and ghetto and spider-infested as ours could work it’s charm over us, then that gives me high hopes for any house in the future =)

at any rate, i guess i just wanna say - my apartment is always open to you.  may you feel welcome in my new place.

and that goes for this site too - welcome to my new blog - i hope you visit often, and leave comments as well.  lemme know when you’ve stopped by. 

enjoy!

Posted by kgrp on 09/28 at 09:53 PM
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