Monday, October 10, 2005
a bit of rafalosophy
so tonight i went to rafa‘s poetry reading and heard him perform this poem that i’ve heard him read before, but this was my first time seeing him perform it on stage. actually, it was the first time i’d seen him perform anything on stage. if you can call the basement of grounds for enjoyment a stage…
afterwards, we stuck around and discussed life… and as i was letting him in on a few changes in my stance on life, he asked me if i was studyin’ up on his rafalosophy. hmmm… i’d like to think of my development as strictly my own, although i have to admit that my friends, and my conversations with them, -do- influence my growth. i think mostly i wanna claim my recent progress as something i’ve grown into as the time was right for it, instead of something that i accept only cuz he beat me over the head with it =D any of you who have a friendship with him like i do know what i’m talking about, right?
anyways, i guess i just wanna say that i’m realizing more and more that life is what i make of it… this might be just a product of me growing up or just finally realizing it but hey, this is my life, and i’m enjoying it. sure, things could be different, things could possibly be even better, but ya know what? it’s my life, and it’s what i choose every day, and i’m okay with that. maybe it’s just a result of finally having a job that i love, and being where i feel i should be, instead of feeling like i’m still searching for a purpose in life. or maybe it’s just cuz now i’m 26 and i’m more mature than i was before. whatever the reason, i know that i can make the choice every day to live this life…
life is a choice. happiness is a choice. and it’s a choice that i’m learning to make. none of this waiting till things get better. i’m just gonna start enjoying it now =)